GainerBull began his weight gain journey over 20 years ago, back when he weighed around 80 kg. He has since hit around 225 kg.
The 45-year-old, whose real name is Bryan, is a member of the fat fetish community, and enjoys gaining weight and participating in ‘loading sessions’ online. Erotic weight gain has been a well-known subculture in the gay community since the Girth & Mirth movement became popular in the US in the 70’s.
For Bryan, who lives in Palm Beach, Florida, the idea of wanting to bulk up came at an early age. He told ‘I can’t say anything in particular got me into gaining. I can remember being as young as six and watching cartoons with exaggerated body proportions of muscle and bellies that just caught my interest as an ideal. In my teens I started working out and in my early twenties I started to work on bulking up my gut as well. It turned sexual in my teens when I realised the idea and process of getting bigger excited me more than anything else.’
Giving yourself over to intense gaining like this, however, is no cheap way to live, with Bryan eating around 10,000 calories a day – four times the standard amount for an adult man.
To pay for the food and continue his chosen lifestyle, Bryan decided to monetise his gaining on OnlyFans, which he says allows him to be ‘able to afford continuing to provide more results for those who want to enable me.’ Subscribers pay $20 a month to see his content.
‘I don’t gain easily so it’s always been an uphill battle. The bigger I get the more challenging it gets too. It’s been years of escalating my intake and binging to increase my capacity but these days just the regular eating keeps me going though sometimes an encourager or two like to really push me to go much farther.’
The encouragement is a major part for Bryan, pushing him forward to eat large amounts in single meals to ‘stuff’ himself.
Bryan told: ‘In a meal that would stuff me, in terms if fast foods, it’d be three large combos with anywhere from three to six additional sides.’ Although Bryan’s partner isn’t specifically into gaining or feeding, he supports Bryan through his journey, and ‘encourages the encouragement of others who are into it.’ Because of Bryan’s unique ‘ball gut’, clothes are particularly hard to find in his size. Once he outgrew a 3XL, he’s struggled to find shirts that fit his arms and stomach equally well.
Similarly, all of his gaining is done with balance in mind. Despite his intent to continually gain, Bryan knows the dangers of this and tries to mitigate it through eating a variety of food groups.
‘Extreme body size is risky and I do my best to balance out the junk food with nutrition,’ says Bryan.
‘I make sure to eat lots of fruits and vegetables as well as lots of high protein foods while keeping active in the gym. It’s a challenge but it’s important to understand the risks involved with becoming such an extreme level of huge.’
But – as with many fetishes – along with the sexual side spurring him on, there’s also a community of people who help him feel confident and appreciated.
He says: ‘It’s been really great having men who understand my desire to grow encourage and push me.’
Gainer Bull’s “normal day” food diary
- Dozen eggs
- Package of pork sausage
- Four english muffins
- Large bowl of fresh fruit
1200 calorie protein shake before workout
- Three large burger/chicken combos
- Three to four additional sides
- 40 nuggets
- Milkshake or two
Protein bars between meals
- Meatloaf – two pounds
- Mac and cheese
- Steamed vegetables
- Roasted potatoes
Before bed I could have a second dinner or a lot of snacks and deserts. It’s whatever I feel like stuffing in.
I do mix it up most days but usually have one big fast food meal that easily pegs 4-5k calories in itself.